Love yourself first
Love yourself first
Love yourself first,
At very first place.

it just me forcing myself to always remember that i really need to love myself before anyone else because no one will. No one is willing to stay. They departed.

Leaving me broken
Completely broken
Inside and outside

Its not easy, I'm telling you. I had to learn how to love myself, how to love my riddles when I speak, how to love my short legs, how to deal with my own silly-self, how to control my nervous, how to love my tired eyes. I had to do everything on my own, with my own tears in one shot. All for one. Because its going to be once. Once in a lifetime; for someone who isn't worth the fight. For someone who don't know his place, for someone who don't realize how hard I tried, for someone for can't see the magic that I brought, for someone who easily walk away.

I won't forgive you. For all the hurting words and acts. Live like that. Die in vain.

My mother accused me for easily fallen for guys, for opening my door to many people, for hanging out with many guys. They judge my social life.

Wow.

They just didn't know. They don't know the struggles, sitting alone in a lonely, pretty but sad room. My 4-am thoughts, so many papers have been wasted writing all the things I want to do, I want to say; but I don't.

I won't tell them. Because they don't deserve to know.

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Sincerity is something I've been looking for in a crowded room full of bones and soul. I started to tell lie once I got scolded for an honesty that I poured. Don't blame me for you to hate the truth.

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-You will not heal by going back to what broke you.