These days,I think a lot.I'm tracing my life back then, looking for reasons, tons of reasons.Of the shadow that grew with me until these days. Then I started to slowly reveals part of history that I don't really want to remember. A part of me that I don't want to acknowledge as mine. It was me, no matter what happen. It was still...

Hi Junghyun. You deserve my entry! I grow up with Shinee's song. I always adore you guys because depsite of all pressure Shinee is the only boyband that seems to hold in very well (no one leaves, no big fuss) .Well, to be honest, Minho was my bias at that time. I also once had the glowstick but maybe now not anymore. I've...

It just malam-malam biasa yang sunyi. Kalau malam-malam sebelum ni aku tutup kesunyian ni dengan tidur awal, malam ni aku dah tak larat tidur awal :) So I'm getting back to my self, fikir dalam-dalam dan mengungkit. LOL. Let me get it straight! Recently, I had a "di-angin-lalu" talk with an old friend. He told me, kau jangan manja-manja sangat dgn partner kau...

So, in the end of the day its all back to the blessings. I've been wandering like a ghost since few days ago, well KRP tetiba takde air without notice. I am sooo hanggggrrrrrry. Its crazy and I am so tired. Lucky to have Faz around, she let me ulang-alik to and fro her room for few days. Alhamdulillah, last night air dah...

Assalamualaikum good night! I bet most everyone pernah dengar analogi bunga-paling-cantik-kesempurnaan bla bla. Ala jalan kat taman suruh petik bunga paling cantik, tak boleh patah balik bla bla. <-- because everyone knows. Pemalas! Seorang murid bertanya, "wahai guru, bagaimana caranya agar kita mendapatkan sesuatu yang paling sempurna dalam hidup?" Sang guru merenung sejenak lalu menjawab : "Berjalanlah lurus di taman bunga, lalu petiklah...

Assalamualaikum. Hari yang kosong dan suram dan plain dan panas. Dan aku pun membiarkan kekosongan itu tak terisi, otak pun malas bekerja hari ini. Takpelah, biarlah dia berehat hahaha. Sangatlah tidak produktif aaa tahniah lah. Lemau sungguh rasanya, sesungguhnya once Alex pulang ke pangkuan akan aku paksa beliau utk memaksaku bersukan BERSAMA-SAMA. Harap maklum, i need that :( A little throwback from yesterday's...

Assalamualaikum & hi. *kelip-kelip mata* Menaip sambil menahan sakit kepala teramat kerana cuaca yang sahhngat panas harini & terpaksa menunggu di workshop hampir 2 jam. *mohonsimpatihehe So far, life has been treating me good alhamdulillah walaupun kadangkala sepertinya udah tidak waras lol. Too many things yang berpusing-pusing dalam kepala otak, banyak sangat pilihan & keputusan yang memang dah beratur siap-siap tinggal aku nak...

Assalamualaikum and hi. Salam gembira dan salam berada di rumah yeah yeah. Salam makan sedap ibu masak. Yesterday gerak sekali dengan Alex dari UTM saaaaaaaaaaampai Rawang. Happy tak terperi. Sebab mula-mula plan teman sampai Yong Peng je. Tak suka bila dia boleh sampai rumah dulu while mine jauh lagi nak sampai. Hahaha XD Feel touched, blessed to always have you with me. Tak...

Life is weird And that is the beauty of living! Tak semua yang kita rancang akan sentiasa menjadi. Percaya, aturan Allah itu yang terbaik (fullstop). No compromise! Tiada hujah yang boleh menandingi hikmah. Percayalah kepada kepercayaan, erk? Kat situlah terletaknya harapan. Manusia mana yang boleh hidup tanpa harapan? Cara menaruh harapan yang paling mantap; berdoa :) Hari ini tak pernah menjanjikan esok, sebagaimana...

Nak senyum lebar-lebar boleh? Nak senyummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm je banyak-banyak. :') Dari dulu aku berpegang pada prinsip; love someone with the way he/she wanted/needed. It is a side of a friend yang aku jarang tengok, kerna aku bukanlah sesiapa. Malahan, dia bukanlah seperti yang dulu denganku huuuuuuu. Yang lepas tu, aku simpan sebagai kenangan yang paling merepek dan antara koleksi yang indah-indah dan sekali seumur...

Hi there. I hope you are doing fine, wherever you are. It's hard. It's unfair when you told me that I'm not giving you attention. It's not fair when you said that I macam tak kisah pasal you. My life are all revolving around you. Nak buat semua benda mesti dengan awak, bercerita at the end of the day dengan awak. If only...

I believe there will be a rainbow on the other side & I just need to keep it up and move forward, just like how I always do. I am getting 21, does it looks like a routine? :') The painful night had passed and I just want be fine for one more time. & I surely will. ...

I want to make this entry extraaaaaa long. But I'm just happy, I'm happy to know you Most of the time, kalau ada isu yang menarik and selalunya benda yang complicated macam random art ni I always terfikir "nanti tanya dialah", "cuba ckp dgn dia nanti". HAHAHA ITS FREAKING CREEPY TAPI ENTAHLAH KENAPA. Just thanks my fairygodfather, always my lifesaver. When times are...

You know There will be a point in your life Where you are just tired hoping, waiting, caring, expecting, planning "I don't really wanna care and I just want to live my life in my way" There is so many words, language and song lyrics I still can't relay the message that I would like to convey Its not anyone fault It just...

Assalamualaikum & hi agaaaaaaaaaaaaain like neveeeeeeeeer end. From today and now on, I will update the progress of my skin hereeee in this blog. Why? I think I should lah, since dulu lagi sejak bertukar-tukar product ni. I toldya kalau aku boleh refund semua duit yang dah aku tabur on skincare & collagen drinks; aku boleh jadi kaya hahaha. Walhal, tidak juga cantiknya...

Hi Assalamualaikum. Good day everyone. I just nak berleter about my selera makan omg :( Guess what, I'm really into nasi. For no reasons at all. I just love rice and I might berkahwin dengan beras jika dia boleh berubah bentuk menjadi manusia hahaha. It scares me. For now, I eat nasi daily 3/4 times setiap hari kot IN A BIG PORTION (usually...

Hi hi Assalamualaikum Anneyong Saya masih menganggur tapi saya tidaklah terbongkang di tengah rumah. Tapi tapi, saya memang melebih-lebih tidurnya. Tak apalah, bukan selalu. Eh? Life is doing good alhamdulillah. Takdelah good mana actually tapi alhamdulillah sangat sangat sangat, family is doing really well. So I'm a happy girl! Other than that, i wannaaaaaaaa say syukur sangat that i was given the opportunity...

Love yourself first Love yourself first Love yourself first, At very first place. it just me forcing myself to always remember that i really need to love myself before anyone else because no one will. No one is willing to stay. They departed. Leaving me broken Completely broken Inside and outside Its not easy, I'm telling you. I had to learn how to...

Alhamdulillah, syukur syukur dan syukur atas kesempatan yang diberi Tuhan untuk masih bernafas dan mencipta kenangan dalam menuju pengakhiran yang pasti. Alhamdulillah semuanya baik-baik sahaja. Tak semuanya indah tapi semua yang hadir membawa banyak hikmah. Nikmat yang tak terkata. Ajaibnya kasih sayang, sangat-sangat hebat. Tenang dan memberi pemahaman yang sangat abstrak, tanpa perlu kau cerita. Seperti aku yang menyimpan sendiri. Aku tak perlu...

Life is like 'we're doing great but "poofff" & everything is gone'. Analogy; Sepasang husband-wife yang masih muda, tiada masalah rumahtangga rumit, hidupnya senang, mempunyai seorang anak perempuan yang berumur 3 tahun. Umur 3 tahun, lincah, petah dan pelat ketika berbicara; almaklumlah masih di peringkat umur baru pandai bercakap. Tanpa perlu deskripsi mendalam, aku boleh bayangkan keluarga yang saling menyayangi dan tinggi nilainya...

As I was scrolling twitter just now, there is one quote yg wow "A woman can't change a man because she loves him, but a man can change himself because he loves her"- Gentleman Entahlah, i am not reminiscing on those past of mine but to think that how crazy am i rasa mcm i boleh ubah someone dulu, how berusahanya cari idea...

Hi imissyou my blog huuuu. Banyakkkk benda nak cerita sebab takut lupa, takut hilang rasa. Tapi takpe, tu boleh nanti update kat wixx. Cuma few highlights; Takpe. Berdoa, berusaha dan bersabar. Sabar tu kena paling baaaaaaaaaanyak. Lepas tu, tak susah pun nak buat aku blah dari hidup anyone. Kau boleh tolak banyak-banyak and aku still gagah berdiri kat depan kau. Tapi, sekali je...

Somedays I'm nice Somedays I can be a bitch. Your true colour is not something that you can dance in front of the world; pearls should remain hidden. It's like putting up an innocent face and swear someone in your heart. Honestly, I wanna see you be brave! How to make your blog less-pathetic, less-sad and less-lonely? Fuck you. Oh so this is...

Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepie. Got present; class inovasi cancel. Tak, tanak fikir apa-apa pasal projek. Khidmat komuniti pun orang lain tolong fikir kan boleh? Mestilah boleh, tidur before meeting dan terjaga pukul 3 pagi. Kasihan kalian. Sorryla, takde member nak kejutkan. So so so harini excited sikit sebab eh lalu dataran dan eh eh. Dari jauh nampak helmet and beg cukup dah, ok as usual orang...

Dia punya stress sampai rasa macam nak nangis Tak, tak pelik Irony. Harini baru hari isnin haha. Baru diambang derita tau wahai Amirah. Semua benda tak settle lagi ni. Masalah-masalah yang tak perlu pun nak sumbat-sumbat masuk. Aku cuma kena tahan sampai Habis program. Lepas tu aku nak duduk diam-diam, aku tanak jumpa sape-sape haha. Pergi mampus la apa pun. Sekali je, cukup...

Yet, it's a risk that I personally up to take. Pastu padan muka diri sendiri and as expected. All of you are from the same tree, branch-to-branch. But I was happy. The preparation and the excitement is just crazy, God know why hehe. I would like to save all the beautiful and silent moment, where we breathe awkward smoke together and me standing...

tarik nafas perlahan pejam mata. tarik dalam hingga ke hujung hujung nyawa. jangan mengeluh, tenang. diam. okay, dah okay. boleh heart attack kalau setiap hari ada kejutan  orang sekeliling bahaya. kau diam, dorang suruh bersuara  kau bercakap, orang kata "kau ingat kau power". "macam kau ada apa-apa pulak". aku nak bercerita je gila. susah hidup dengan manusia ni, kan? ...

Dulu aku pernah cakap Aku akan bahagia bila tengok kau bahagia Aku nak tengok kau bahagia & itulah punca kebahagiaan aku Tapi kenapa aku tak bahagia bila aku tahu yang kau dah bahagia Kenapa aku rasa nafas aku tersekat bila aku nampak kau bahagia Kenapa sakit tu sama je bila kau pamerkan kebahagiaan kau Dan kau betul-betul bahagia sekarang Aku rasa kecik sangat...

Bismillah I think I'm doing fine, jadi sponge absorb everything. Even though rasa dah berat tapi anggap jelah macam hukuman dan yeh padan muka and takpe. So basically everything is going good and gonna be fine (hurk). My timing is ok by timid. I take time, I susun langkah, aku bersihkan jalan supaya senang orang nak lalu. Supaya tenang orang yang lalu. Tapi...

Because I talked too much Because I showed too much Ubah diri, keluar dari bulatan? Forget the insecurity boundary? Put your trust on another level? Bullshits. Crappy bullshit nonsense things that people wrote on books. Just to give you a false hope. In real life, it won't happen to just anyone. It's good if you're lucky enough. My dear self is paling teruk...

You know, I'm having a very hard time. My life are now in rush but my eyes relaxed every time I saw you in front of my door.  You are a miracle yang Allah hantar to fix the broken me. Tapi, I don't believe in me yet. I'm afraid. Saya tak berani berharap. Because none of anything would ever worth the risk. I...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Pagi yang indah & cahaya soft koko bertebaran di muka bumi Johor yang aman. Jiwa yang tenang dan bahagia, seperti baru tersedar dari mimpi yang indah. Angin pagi menderu halus, menyapa lembut kulit. Aku pandang langit, aku bau rumput. Entah emo pulak tiba-tiba. Tahniah kepada diri sendiri tahniah kepada semua sahabat dunia akhirat. Kita telah bersama-sama menjayakan GIF 1.O dengan baik dan...

Works are okay but not that fine. I'm in rush and most of the time, I'm scared. I did ask few foolish question which I regretted then. I show my clumsiness & flaws already. I'm happy to start everything over, Aluq and Imran is just very nice & AWESOME. They're busy people but they're really helpful. Although Imran is reaaaaaaaaaaally busy these days,...

I've promised myself to get busy all the time, get tired all the time. So that I won't have enough time to think about you, and I almost do. My life are doing great at this moment, I'm happy to hang around with new friends. I'm sure to love myself good enough, I love my own nature character although you don't like it....

I had an amazing evening. Thanks to someone. I'm so excited bila awak ajak keluar. I'm so happy sampai rasa macam nak menangis. Because I thought I will never see you again. I'm quite nervous walking through the stairs. I somehow forgot your face, your scent, your smile. I'm flustered to see you again. Still handsome & tall, I might fall for you...

Menjadi perlarian di tanah sendiri Menjadi kedana di laman sendiri Menjadi rakyat yang miskin Hidup melarat di rumah sendiri Gempita suara memecah hening Sorakan, teriakan menerjah telinga Di tanah yang kaya kulihat tandus Di era kemajuan kulihat remaja buta ...

Mungkin itu kebahagiaan yang kau mahukan Sepi, diam dan halus tenunan kasih Berbisik-bisik setiap patah bicara Seperti sahaja menunggu hari dan masa Berbalas kiriman surat 274km Mungkin aku terlalu bising Riuh aku membawa kelemasan Ketaksempurnaan aku Melumpuhkan cinta & rasa Rapi sungguh ego disisip Tenang kau mengatur langkah Seperti aku tak pernah wujud Hebat aturan hidupmu Jelas sekali Aku tiada dalam fikiran Watak...

Hai Sang perindu yang tabah dan masih tegar menahan rasa, aku tahu kau sudah mengecap bahagia. Eee bestnya! Instead of being jealous, aku gembira. Sumpah! Aku tenang melihat kau gembira & kau ada tempat utk meluahkan. Hari-hari aku, indah mana pun masih tak aman bila mengenang muka suram kau yang memang tak kena dengan suara ceria kau. Ke mana kau pergi, apa kau...

Sedalam-dalam jiwa Berparut sepinya luka Tenang menahan rasa Gerimis petang, Bawa duka. Payah seorang memendam Bibir tutup dikatup diam Langit cerah terlihat suram Terbang dlm pekat malam. ...