"the strongest ones bleed in silence. have no one applauding their growth. have no one watching their healing process. they bloom in silence" -iambrillyant

let's start over. its not something new. it is called "welcome home/hey you've returned!" hahaha.

 

 

I would like to put 'today' in a frame. Because soon, it will be history.

I woke up late. Ok tersedar at maybe 3am then certainly at 6.35am but tanak bukak mata. Siap bukak comforter and roll dalam tu. Wow amirah, that's impressive! Bijaksana, sini dan situ. Dengan harapan 6.45am akan terjaga but guess what? Seperti kisah-kisah dan alasan cliche yang lain, aku terlajak. Feels like alaa bagi canlah, 3 hari seminggu kelas start at 8am kemon.

So tiba tiba mata pun terbuka dek terkena sinaran matahari. Since dah ubah kedudukan katil, bukak mata memang nampak tingkap dulu. I was like bersilat on katil, melompat macam anak ayam sakit perut. Terkejut gila,why langsir dah warna oren, kenapa kat luar tu terang sangat wow wow. Dahlah dah buat appoinment dgn Dr harini, mati aku, mesti dia ingat aku main-main, careless etc lol haha. Betul lah tu, main-main and cuai taraaaaa.

Tengok jam, pukul 8am tepat whaaaaaaaat. Scary betul, taubat aku. Appoinment pukul 9, baju tak pilih lagi, tudung tak iron lagi. Aku pun memang dah macam Mcgyver pepagi yang terang sangat tu. Somehow I managed utk keluar bilik at 8.30 wowowowow. Then baru teringat nak check minyak battery, minyak enjin blabla dah seminggu tangguh, dengan kereta takde minyak haih mira mira. Dengan roti sekeping hati dibawa berlari ha. Pagi yang lapar.

Settle semua, aku pun rush ke fakulti. Pi usha bilik Dr dulu sebab lupa kat mana, once dah jumpa tiba-tiba delay 15mins Dr ada hal. But that's fine tho, aku boleh bertenang and pergi lab tengok apa budak2 ni buat.

Anddddddddd guess what? My decision utk jumpa Dr Faizani are so tepat. Honestly, malu la sebenarnya sebab tak pernah masuk kelas dia blahblah tp pernah buat lab dengan dia and dia pernah jadi panel masa presentation lab where dia argue kan statement aku kat discussion hahaha.

After jumpa Dr Faizani it seems to me that I don't have to meet other Dr dah. I found the one that i've been looking for, i hope so. I will read more and learn more just to see what is waiting for me on the other inside, in shaa Allah.

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big day today, my hair :((((((((

BIG AND SPECIAL AND LOVELY THANKS TO FATASYA DAN FAZLINA GOSH. THEY ARE ANGELS SUMPAH. I MIGHT CAN'T GET THROUGH THIS ALONE SERIOUSLY, I WAS THINKING NAK BALIK RUMAH JE, THANKS GUYS.

I had fun loving myself.