When all the butterflies fly away
From the hopes that we always dream of
From the expectations that had after all this time

The leaves falls to the ground
Randomly, slowly, relentlessly
We ended up stuck between our hope and reality

Life sucks
But let just close our eyes again tonight
Let just forget all the pain, all the ruckuss
Let just be fine, just fine

Tomorrow is always another day
To make it right

Once again

:D

When this crowded room seems to be empty
I used to wait you to wake up in the morning
Calling your phone for thousands time
Ok tipu je heeeeeeee.

I might feel like being crushed
If I were at your place right now
I've been thinking about it
Since the day I left

I wish we can have other option
Better than this
I wonder if my magic works on you
So we can be better than this

Its hurt to see you hurting
At our place, alone


The whole thing is just so heartbreaking.

I am so sorry to watch this happens in front of my eyes.

It must been a tough night for you, alone.

Salam and good everning.

I'm homieee. Its a long and boring drive, alone. Alah acahnya hahaha. Its a sad drive after all :)

I thought dapat balik sama-sama dengan Alex, main potong-potong kereta. && he will reserve the right lane for me. That so damn funny and its crazy. Selalu kena buli je on the highway, its good to have a guardian behind.

At this moment, Alex still kat UTM. I wonder if he ever felt lonely lol haha. If its me, I will be extremely sad and go to bed early. Its normal i think untuk rasa macamtu, beberapa hari sebelum balik Rawang, we went out everyyyydayyyyyyyyyyy. Something that we hardly do before.

I am so happy, no doubt. At last, we can go out without fikir too much pasal kerja, no time restriction hahaha.

Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you sayang for all the memories that you gave.

I'll cherished them all for my entire life.

Assalamualaikum 2018!

Omg. Alhamdulillah super muper duper bersyukur, diberi kesempatan untuk hidup dengan nikmat yang tak terkira banyaknya.

&& 2017 did mean so so much to me :D

I broke up with a guy who don't value me, join program tanpa rehat tanpa henti, no weekend, no jalan-jalan, buat benda gila sorang-sorang, jumpa ramaaaaaaaai orang, belajar banyak benda, faced my fears, loving myself even more and the most important part is where found myself and no doubt I love 'her'.

I lost him but I found myself. Lesson learned!

Dalam banyak-banyak orang, saya jumpa Alex :)

This is my important turning point. The one that always believe in me and love me for who am I.

My 2017 ended beautifully, thanks to Alex. Tak dapat tengok fireworks pun takpe, terubat hati I hahaha. He told me a loooot of nice things, which first made me cringe and then rasa nak nangis haha. He told me all the good qualities that I possessed and all and all, somehow it make me feel really emotional and bersyukur tak bersudah.

As a girl/woman, benda yang paling penting ialah kita dihargai. Kita dinilai sebagai sesuatu yang sangat berharga dan sangat menarik oleh orang yang kita sayang. Let man be a man, its not your job to ASK them being a man. Lesson learned [2]. This man told me that he loved me because of my pure self (read: pure, natural, real). I always worried, wondering if I only need to show my best side to him. But then, I realized that I want to be happy. I want to be comfortable with myself. So I learned to let my personality slide through the relationship regardless of being perfect all the time.

It's like a dream that I found someone who loves my real self, asking me to be real; just like how I always wanted. Yes I want to improve and keep on improving without losing my identity. That's where my price tag are.

No doubt, you are the missing piece that I've been looking for my whole life. My perfect partner ^^.
Thanks for always bagi muka kat I hahaha, menyayangi I, selalu support I, bagi I makan banyak-banyak. I learned a lot from you and your ways. I want to be like you.

I've been through quite a lot, and I know he too. He has his side of story and I have mine. Its not easy mencari yang betul-betul menghargai kita. Dari mana datang rasa menghargai? Daripada rasa sayang dan niat. Ada lelaki yang aku dah jumpa, yang asyik ask me to change, to change, to change sampai satu masa aku rasa aku hilang control utk jadi apa yang aku nak jadi. Then aku ada jugak jumpa lelaki yang nak bercinta ringan-ringan hahaha. Tak bersedia dengan tanggungjawab? Nak bercinta je dulu.

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Zaman sedang mengejar kita. Aku tanak tertinggal. Aku tanak selamanya dibawah. Cita-cita dan impian kita lain. Kau nak jadi orang biasa-biasa dan aku mahu jadi orang yang berkualiti walaupun aku kuat tidur dan kuat makan hahaha.

Biarlah impian aku setinggi awan pun, bukannya kena bayar. Wek.