Assalamualaikum 2018!

Omg. Alhamdulillah super muper duper bersyukur, diberi kesempatan untuk hidup dengan nikmat yang tak terkira banyaknya.

&& 2017 did mean so so much to me :D

I broke up with a guy who don't value me, join program tanpa rehat tanpa henti, no weekend, no jalan-jalan, buat benda gila sorang-sorang, jumpa ramaaaaaaaai orang, belajar banyak benda, faced my fears, loving myself even more and the most important part is where found myself and no doubt I love 'her'.

I lost him but I found myself. Lesson learned!

Dalam banyak-banyak orang, saya jumpa Alex :)

This is my important turning point. The one that always believe in me and love me for who am I.

My 2017 ended beautifully, thanks to Alex. Tak dapat tengok fireworks pun takpe, terubat hati I hahaha. He told me a loooot of nice things, which first made me cringe and then rasa nak nangis haha. He told me all the good qualities that I possessed and all and all, somehow it make me feel really emotional and bersyukur tak bersudah.

As a girl/woman, benda yang paling penting ialah kita dihargai. Kita dinilai sebagai sesuatu yang sangat berharga dan sangat menarik oleh orang yang kita sayang. Let man be a man, its not your job to ASK them being a man. Lesson learned [2]. This man told me that he loved me because of my pure self (read: pure, natural, real). I always worried, wondering if I only need to show my best side to him. But then, I realized that I want to be happy. I want to be comfortable with myself. So I learned to let my personality slide through the relationship regardless of being perfect all the time.

It's like a dream that I found someone who loves my real self, asking me to be real; just like how I always wanted. Yes I want to improve and keep on improving without losing my identity. That's where my price tag are.

No doubt, you are the missing piece that I've been looking for my whole life. My perfect partner ^^.
Thanks for always bagi muka kat I hahaha, menyayangi I, selalu support I, bagi I makan banyak-banyak. I learned a lot from you and your ways. I want to be like you.

I've been through quite a lot, and I know he too. He has his side of story and I have mine. Its not easy mencari yang betul-betul menghargai kita. Dari mana datang rasa menghargai? Daripada rasa sayang dan niat. Ada lelaki yang aku dah jumpa, yang asyik ask me to change, to change, to change sampai satu masa aku rasa aku hilang control utk jadi apa yang aku nak jadi. Then aku ada jugak jumpa lelaki yang nak bercinta ringan-ringan hahaha. Tak bersedia dengan tanggungjawab? Nak bercinta je dulu.

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Zaman sedang mengejar kita. Aku tanak tertinggal. Aku tanak selamanya dibawah. Cita-cita dan impian kita lain. Kau nak jadi orang biasa-biasa dan aku mahu jadi orang yang berkualiti walaupun aku kuat tidur dan kuat makan hahaha.

Biarlah impian aku setinggi awan pun, bukannya kena bayar. Wek.