You know
There will be a point in your life
Where you are just tired hoping, waiting, caring, expecting, planning

"I don't really wanna care and I just want to live my life in my way"

There is so many words, language and song lyrics
I still can't relay the message that I would like to convey
Its not anyone fault
It just
Tasteless, bland;

That I just swayed the feeling
Most of the time

That is - an ignorant me
How i teach myself not to care
But i end up pretending to be so nice

Actually, deep inside
I felt nothing

Basically its my act of courtesy
Maybe

I guess I am not good enough to sum things and write up
I just write fantasies and nightmares
To feel alive

I hate love story